'ME TIME' weekend

Yes, I call it 'me time' weekend because I decided to just stay at my dorm this whole weekend, I'm not gonna visit my bf this weekend. I don't know why but just thinking of commuting all the way to my bf's place gets me tired already. Well at least, I'll be able to update my blog, and it's really my goal for this weekend.

Last Tuesday, I received a simple bouquet from a guy friend, Michael. Actually it's 3 of us whom he gave a simple bouquet. If you're reading my previous post, I celebrated Valentine's day with my college friends last 14th of Feb. And since Michael's parents has a flower shop business, we (Chia and Mona) are teasing him to at least give us a bouquet though I don't like receiving flowers, after all, that was just a joke.
Now the day has come that Michael gave us a simple bouquet last Tuesday..I actually didn't expected it. But one thing's for sure, he gave us a bouquet simply because there's still some flowers left in their businesscafter the Valentine's day. =) (They're selling flowers online)
Mona told me that I got flowers from someone, I didn't know that it's from Michael yet.. I told Mona to put those flowers in the trash then suddenly, to my surprise, Michael shouted at me to at least appreciate the flowers he gave. *laughs* Well, either way, if I knew that it's from Michael or not, I will still say the same thing. But a few mins later, I thanked him for the flowers, of course.
Now please don't ask me why I hate flowers because I don't know either. Maybe I don't like it because I don't receive anything before when my hs friends does, or my bf doesn't give me one (though he know that I don't like one, but at least, why don't try cos I might appreciate it, right?) or I just don't like receiving one for some reason that I don't totally know....I just don't know. But at least, I still appreciate the beauty of a flower.

HAHA 3 roses aren't roses aren't open yet

Midterms' still hunting me

Yes, midterms is done and I'm not satisfied with the answers in my Customs1 exam. But I'm pretty sure I nailed my Tariff1 exam and not bad for Taxation1 exam. Ugh. I guess, the way I revise all of the lessons isn't my best yet. And guess what, I just had my declamation for our my Speech Comm class yesterday and my performance is just so lame. Well, it's because I'm not prepared, I memorized it 2 hrs before I perform, and I'm surprised because I am the first to perform. It isn't my plan, my plan is to be atleast the 3rd to perform for me to get an idea on how to deliver that freaking prose. If only I wasn't chosen to perform first, I might got the best performance ever yesterday. I'm so depressed. I want to get the best grades cos I wanna belong to the 1st section class next sem. :(
Damn it, I'm starting to be competitive already with my school buddies, I wanna overcome this..no, not that I need to overcome, I need to at least control this kind of attitude. Because I won't be motivated anymore if ever I'll surpass being competitive. I just want to be as good as they were in class. I'm feeling so stupid already, I wanna be the most intelligent person in our class... I swear I'm gonna study hard..

Photo taken after the declamation.

Something random for now

Hey, I'm back here in Manila!
I'm currently using my phone right now for blogging and it's quite fine so far. haha. So, nothing, I just feel like posting something random right now. And to get started, let me tell you that my bf and I just celebrated our 32nd monthsary yesterday by having a dinner at Yabu, one of our favorite restaurants and I guess everybody loves Yabu! And guess what, my bf just had his new haircut and I would say that his new haircut really looks good on him He looked young!

see?

Dinner at Yabu

Christmas Break

Currently chillin' at my bf's pad, updating my blog and I'm just so happy cos finally, Prelims is over!

Lemme just show you guys the reason why (maybe) I'm so determined to revise all the lessons for Prelims.
haha. Because my study table is sky blue (favourite color) and there's a word focus in front of me while having a book review. haha

I already bought a ticket going to Bicol this coming Saturday for me and my friend, yes, we're both going to Bicol on the same day..

And these were the photos taken yesterday after our last Prelim exam and last class..

Oops, before I forgot, if you guys are wondering what these two boys are doing, they're playing Pinoy Genius during our Speech Comm class. It was planned by our Prof for Christmas Class edition, we even have the so called Christmas Quiz! haha

got caught

Well my bf and I had a fight. It's just a pretty non sense fight that lead to an almost break up.
Okay, so let me confess something first, there's this one guy who really gives me just a slight butterflies, he's boarding just right beside my dorm so I often see him especially whenever I go out of my dorm for school. And he often ate at my dorm's canteen for lunch. I don't know why, but I felt as if he has something for me. I really can feel it, I actually caught him staring at me several times. I like him cos I felt that he has something for me *laughs* BITCH PLEASE HAHA. But that doesn't mean that my feelings for my bf is slowly fading, no, in fact, it keeps on growing. Because having a crush on that guy makes me realize that I still love my bf no matter what happens. I still won't leave my bf just because I admire someone. I may have so many crushes but my bf is still the one that I love. And having a crush is normal, so I don't see any problem at all.
The only problem is that, I posted something bout my crush on Twitter! haha. And my bf saw it, I know that my bf's stalking me on twitter but hell, I never thought that he'll get livid bout my tweets. Or maybe I'm just testing him if he'll get jealous or not.. I don't know..

First day of my 2nd year college - 2nd semester life

It's been a week since the first day of our 2nd semester starts. Okay, so my first week's not that really good. I've been an irregular student for the last 3 semesters and I guess that's the problem, I've been used to it that I felt really awkward with my blockmates. They were so damn close and I felt as if I wanna isolated myself from them. But I don't wanna be a loner as well, so good thing that there's some people I know in my block, but we're not that close. And it's really awkward that I have to talk to them when I don't even bother smiling at them the last sem. Do you feel me? I enrolled as a regular student this semester since I got full load units already, and I'm required to do so since we have a so called retention policy in my department. It's hard being a regular student when I used to be an irregular student before.

So to share you guys my experience during my first day in my 2nd semester class, I went to room 508, that's the first classroom I ever entered this semester...I can say that everyone of them looked at me as I enter the room as if I looked familiar to them which I was actually, cos they were my classmates last 1st yr college 2nd sem. I can't imagine that I have to deal with their company because never did I talked to them before cos I'm always with my buddy. Btw, she didn't enrolled this semester because she only have 4 subjects to take, she just decided to take those subjects on summer. So going back, I occupied the seat that first caught by my eyes, then 2 of my classmates last sem waves at me, and it's funny because I sit beside them rightaway and told them that I didn't know any people in the class except for the 2 of them. And our prof entered the room, of course he introduced himself and discuss his rules. My prof requires our class to group into 5, which means, my 2 former classmates are gonna be my groupmates because they were the only people I know in the class. But the thing is, I don't want to spend the whole sem with them, not being rude but they're not that studious, they're lazy, and I don't wanna be part of the group of some lazy people. So for the next class, I sit beside those people who looked geek, I asked them if they already have a group for our previous class, and I told them that I can be a member of their group since they're looking for another member anyway. And not only member cos they were my buddies now. HAHA. And I'm loving them already because my goal actually is to spend time with the right people and I just did!

Hopefully they're gonna be my buddies still for the next 4 semesters! I'm still adjusting myself dealing with them yet but I'm kinda comfortable with their company already as time goes by..

I'm back for good

Speechless. I don't know where and how to start this post. It's been a while since the last time I updated my blog and I extremely missed everything here!

So many things happened, of course. And I don't wanna be specific about it anymore cos my life last semester was boring as hell. It was all about work, school and my boyfriend and how sleepy I am the whole semester haha. That's just it, that's how boring my routine is last semester. And I'm sure you don't wanna know all about it either. haha

I will no longer work anymore this coming semester since I am now a regular student, got major subjects already. yey. haha. Now I have to focus on my studies because I have a grade to maintain in my major subjects. That's the retention policy in my course, BS in Customs Administration. I know I will pass all of my major subjects this semester, I just need to study hard, in fact, I am so determined to study, and so I guess everything will be smooth then. (just being positive :) I am now a full time student! haha. I swear I will study hard, I even wanted to be a Dean's Lister this coming semester haha. Hope my name will be on that list, so that I'll get a tuition fee discount for the next school year. haha

I'm unemployed since 1st of October. I'm here in Bicol province right now, spending my vacation here. I'll be heading back north this 4th of November. But I'm planning to work again this coming summer to earn money. My parents are going through financial problem lately so I decided to use my savings as a payment for my tuition fee this coming semester. It saddens me though cos I wasn't able to buy some goodies for myself, just DC shoes, but that's fine with me cos at least I can say that I didn't waste my savings buying useless things just like before. It felt so good knowing that my savings went to something that's really worth it so it's totally fine with me. HAHA. Damn I'm so excited to graduate, to pass Customs Broker's Licensure examination and get my very own Customs Broker's License! =)

LPU vs. UPHSD

Went to San Juan Arena to watch the Basketball game, my school, LPU vs. UPHSD.

My PE professor gave us a deal, if we will not watch the game, then we still need to attend the class on Wednesday and won't get a 100% score on our activity. But if we'll watch the game, we'll get a 100% score plus, we don't need to attend the class anymore on Wednesday. So I'd rather watch the game. HAHA.

Hey. It's my first time to wear a lipstick! And I feel so damn pretty! HAHAHA. The color of the lipstick is pink (it's my room mates' lipstick actually). I put just a  light color that's why it doesn't look like I have a lipstick on, but I swear I do! 

Ombre Hair

Okay, my first dip dye hair is so damn fail! I'm expecting that it'll be blue but no, it turned out being black. My hair didn't achieved the color blue though it has been bleached and dyed twice already. But nothing really happens, my hair became dry. Had my first ombre hair in Bicol.

bleaching

now look, it's as if nothing ombre hair happened. HAHA. So fail

Peace offering

I might be just over thinking

that hurts your innocent feelings

May not be aware of wrong doings

but you to me is my everything

The pain I gave I know will stay

but let me fade those feelings away

Give me a chance to let me stay

cos I know you'll be my man someday

Being independent

It's been a while since the last time I posted here. I wasn't able to update my blog anymore because I'm such a busy person. lol. There's so many things that I want to post here but I forgot my memory card, in other words, I won't be able to upload my updated photos..so I end up posting this lame one..I just don't feel like bragging out everything here when there's no photos. lol.

Well anyway..been very busy like everyday. I was supposed to relax this day but I end up surfing the internet..and here I am..updating my blog :)

So, to get started..
For the 5 months that I am here in Manila, I can say that I already learned how to be independent. Unlike when I was in Bicol, I'm always depending on my parents. Here in Manila, I learned how to wash my clothes with all my heart. lol. Unlike in Bicol, I'm washing my clothes with full of anger simply because I don't want to wash my clothes..I want someone to wash my clothes. Period. I am now walking so fast..not literally..but that kind of walk that is very busy..if you know what I mean..not like before..I'm walking on the streets like I'm going to have a fever.

Long long vacation

Hello Bicol!! :)

Ke. Just arrived here in Bicol last night.

My plan is to spend my long vacation at my bf"s place. But then I thought of spending my long vacation here in Bicol cos of course, family first...and I really don't want to admit the truth but yes, I missed my parents even though we're not that close.

And guess what, I went here in Bicol without my friends knowing..uhm, I just don't want to go outside with my friends here in Bicol cos I just want to relax at home, I need to do my project and review my lessons for my midterm exam...and I know that if ever I hang out with my friends here in Bicol, for sure...we're going to booze and I will shoulder half of the bill *laughs*. I've no time for that aside from paying half of the bill. XD

So I came home promptly late in the afternoon and ate 2 of my favorite dishes for my dinner..

I know it looks like it's not delicious but I'm telling you, it's one of the best dishes here in Bicol :)

tinapa, ginulay na santol and garlic rice

Best exam ever!!

Well, we're actually expecting that our JPL exam will be on friday, then we're so surprised because there came a teacher inside our room which we don't even know who he is, saying that we're going to have our exam then. But we reminded him that our exam will be on friday. Then he said that our prof didn't informed the faculty about the schedule of our exam. We told him that we only meet our prof twice, and we didn't even reviewed our lessons yet. Good thing our prof gave us 15mins to review, but damn, 15mins ain't enough to review all the lessons!

Prelim Examination

Okay. This coming Monday is my prelim exam already. I'm quite nervous and excited cos hello, never thought that I'm going to take an exam again, I mean, it's been two years since the last time I took school exams so yea, hope you know what I mean. HAHA. Seems like I'm not used of having or taking exams anymore. HAHA.

I actually have plans on reviewing my lessons the whole day but I end up taking a nap. HAHA. I swear I'm going to study this time :)

speechless

I actually don't know what to say now but damn, I want to have a job. I want to earn money. I want to have my own money other than my parents are giving me for my school bills and allowance. I want to be employed. That's all I want for now. I am not contented of being a student only. I want to be productive. I want to get busy yet I don't want to be stressed out as well.
I'm actually looking for a call center company here...near Intramuros but I found nothing..they're all located from a far..somewhere in Makati, Ortigas, Cubao.
I thought of applying in one of the call centers in Makati but I find it very stressful cos I need to ride on a train, lrt and mrt beofre I get there. Very stressful.

Err. I just want to have a job. That's it. I want to earn money. I am not used of not having my own money anymore ever since I started working. Oh please help me Lord :((

Another reason why I want to get busy

Here at Cherry Blossoms Hotel right now. I visited my friend last night from her vacation at HK. Actually, I'll visit her supposedly today but I visited her last night for a very embarrassing reason. Me and my bf and his friends are at MOA to hang out and booze. But, I just felt really embarrassing because my bf's friends keeps on teasing me, but it's okay though cos I know how to bang with them anyway... til my bf said like stop teasing her already, she might got offended. Then I got offended right after he said those words. That pisses me off. Then suddenly I felt like I'm gonna throw up cos I ate a lots of rice and I thought my stomach can stand it but no... So I felt like very dizzy then. And it was so cold at MOA! I went to the restroom then vomit like a few shits. Well I know that I walk so damn slowly, and my bf doesn't really like that attitude. But that's me, and to think that I threw a few shits, who do you think can walk normally with that situation? I mean on my situation? So I'm walking like I'm on the moon with my arms crossed.

Need to be productive like seriously.

Okay. Classes is yet near to come. And guess what, I only have 4 subjs to take. Imagine that? I have so many spare time. That is so boring...nothing to do but to sleep and eat? NO. That's not right. Now I'm thinking of applying for a part time job since I only have 12 units and it's all minor subjs. The only good thing to do during my free time is to work. So that I'll be able to earn money as well =)

Look, I want to get busy. I'm not getting any younger anymore. I need to be productive and as well as be independent. I need to work for my own too. I'm turning 20 and I shouldn't have been depending on my parents anymore. I need to stand on my own now. I should have been giving my parents something in return by now but here I am, studying as a first year college student again. I've wasted my time. And I totally regret that shit.

A first timer

Currently surfing the internet here at Intramuros and yes, I paid 10php to surf the internet. I've finally found a place to stay here...just a walking distance from my school. But the sad thing is, we're 12 girls in a room and that ain't nice. You know. So crowded and the weather here in the Philippine's like hell. But I have no choice, there's no any other room or bedspace for rent here in Intramuros...No vacant at all. Been walking for like a couple of hours for 3 days and I've found nothing but the room with 12 tenants... That's sad. But it's okay, I'll just look for another anyway if ever there's a vacant room or bedspace already.

I'm so tired and I was like I just want to give up but no, I know I can do this. I just have to be determined.

Okay. Time to go to SM to buy some dinner for my bf, yes, I'm currently staying at my bf's apartment.
Does my parents know it? A big NO is my answer =)

Schoolgirl.....SOON

Requirements:
 College Entrance Test Permit
 Confirmation Letter
 2 pieces 2" x 2" picture
 Transfer Credential (Honorable Dismissal)
 Official Transcript of Records with remarks "Valid for Transfer" or True Copy of Grades
 Certification of Good Moral Character
 Original and photocopy of Birth Certificate
 Original and Photocopy of evaluation of credited subjects

Different settings, same scenario

Don't know why I keep on dreaming bout my bf kissing a girl nowadays. I really don't believe in nightmares but this time is different. And guess what, my bf also told me that he keeps on dreaming that he's hugging a girl and I was in front of him crying cos I saw him hugging that girl.
Can' you tell me why I have to see those fvcking scenarios in my dream? Can't I just dream about the happy moments with him? And a question that's bugging on my mind is that, why do we have the same nightmare? I mean, it's not actually the same but, it's the same story, you know. That's really weird.