My supposed-to-be late Valentine's gift for him

Last night, while my bf and I are busy, I'm busy doing my homework and he's busy playing dota, I decided to borrow his phone and wrote a poem on my bf's phone's notepad as a late Valentine's gift for him..
Here's the lame poem I wrote..

My first Valentine's Day celebration ever!! =)

Guess what, I've never felt this great celebrating Valentine's Day ever in my entire life.

I first started celebrating Valentine's Day with my school buddies. It just happens that we don't have a regular class yesterday so we decided to go to SM Moa to atleast have a simple celebration for Valentine's Day. We bought a cake from Red Ribbon then we had lunch at KFC. I just had so much fun with them! (I'm gonna upload our photos taken yesterday this coming Wednesday)
And by the way, while we're heading to LRT going to Gil Puyat cos that's where we gonna take a cab going to Moa, I decided to do some Valentine's day prank with guys carrying a bouquet. hahaha. Here's the videos.. Not baddd..

By the way, here are our photos taken when we we're still at the classroom, doing nothing but taking bunch of selfies with my friends/blockmates..

33rd monthsary

Okay. I don't need to explain further. The blog post title says it all. We went out for a booze and smoke some good shit (if you know what I mean) as we got to his pad last friday.

Something random for now

Hey, I'm back here in Manila!
I'm currently using my phone right now for blogging and it's quite fine so far. haha. So, nothing, I just feel like posting something random right now. And to get started, let me tell you that my bf and I just celebrated our 32nd monthsary yesterday by having a dinner at Yabu, one of our favorite restaurants and I guess everybody loves Yabu! And guess what, my bf just had his new haircut and I would say that his new haircut really looks good on him He looked young!

see?

Dinner at Yabu

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 Happy New Year!

So I just got home..and... all I can say is that, I started the first day of 2014 right..I guess so..
First of all, here's my first 2 selfies for this year. haha. I took a photo of myself as I woke up (1/1/14)

not bad for the first selfie

well, I look good here. huehue

 And cuddled with the newest baby in the house, meaty's baby, yuki =)

Year end blog post

I seriously don't know where to start, because first of all, I didn't feel the breeze of Christmas nor the New Year at all.

21st. Going to Bicol.
Here's a photo of me with my bf inside the bus. Hinatid niya lang naman ako

Question: do you agree that my bf looks gay? Cos I do.. 

Post Birthday Celebration

So like what I said before (if you're reading my previous blog posts) I want to eat sea foods as a birthday treat for myself with my bf and my hs friends.

Well, I love how I ate those sea foods but I just don't like the bill that I paid. I mean, I wasn't expecting that expensive bill. My budget for my bday treat is P1,500 only, but I paid double amount of it, P3024. I was shocked but it's fine cos it's my first time to pay that kind of amount for foods and besides, I'm the one who liked to eat sea foods. haha.
No regrets, I'm just shocked. haha

So here's the photo collage of the foods that we ate and of course, us, the guy right beside me is my bf.

2 years and 7 months

Hey, it's our 31st month! yey
So we decided to attend the feast held at the PICC and went to SM Moa for our dinner date =)

in the cab heading to PICC

got caught

Well my bf and I had a fight. It's just a pretty non sense fight that lead to an almost break up.
Okay, so let me confess something first, there's this one guy who really gives me just a slight butterflies, he's boarding just right beside my dorm so I often see him especially whenever I go out of my dorm for school. And he often ate at my dorm's canteen for lunch. I don't know why, but I felt as if he has something for me. I really can feel it, I actually caught him staring at me several times. I like him cos I felt that he has something for me *laughs* BITCH PLEASE HAHA. But that doesn't mean that my feelings for my bf is slowly fading, no, in fact, it keeps on growing. Because having a crush on that guy makes me realize that I still love my bf no matter what happens. I still won't leave my bf just because I admire someone. I may have so many crushes but my bf is still the one that I love. And having a crush is normal, so I don't see any problem at all.
The only problem is that, I posted something bout my crush on Twitter! haha. And my bf saw it, I know that my bf's stalking me on twitter but hell, I never thought that he'll get livid bout my tweets. Or maybe I'm just testing him if he'll get jealous or not.. I don't know..

Peace offering

I might be just over thinking

that hurts your innocent feelings

May not be aware of wrong doings

but you to me is my everything

The pain I gave I know will stay

but let me fade those feelings away

Give me a chance to let me stay

cos I know you'll be my man someday

Celebrating our 2nd Anniversary!

Hello Caramoan!!

First day.
I've got nothing to tell to you guys but the place is just so awesome!

Happy 2nd =)

Gold and glitters may fade away

asters and lilies die and sway

Thee heart of stone you wrap in love

shatters the barrier from above

Lost with you is my paradise

over the hills and by your side

Vex the feeling of solitude

even soothes my strong attitude

Thy heart is mine and mine is yours

it must be fate, true love of course

Thy years may pass you're still my one

shall only cease when I am done

Not bad for my first Valentine's day experience

I was expecting that my first valentine will be memorable. yes actually it's memorable, but it's memorable in a way that I don't wanna remember it anymore. I am so disappointed. I am not the one who asked for a date, it's him. But, ok, to make the story short, he didn't make his commitment, instead of us having a date, he decided to just watch the band with me and his friends. It's not a big deal actually to celebrate valentine's day by just watching the band with his friends, but my point is, a commitment is a priority, and not an option. I don't want people talkshitting me...you know, you guys decided what to do this day already but then suddenly, it'll be ruined just because of not doing your commitment. It ain't nice.

Spend my night with him, he's asleep and I'm crying the whole night beside him. As he woke up, he asks for an apology, of course, I'll accept it, what else I can do?

We'll get through it

We're in a weird stage right now...and I don't know how to handle it.
To tell you honestly, I'm so confused with our relationship right now. It's like we're already comfortable with each other that we already forgot the relationship that we had. Oh well, I'm visiting you as long as I have enough time..we're eating together...sleep together.... then all of a sudden, with just a misunderstanding, it's like we already forget who we really are and what's the relationship between us. We're totally fucked up....or should I say...I just suck.

You never care

You said I'm important to you yet I don't even feel it.
You said I'm your first priority but it seems like I'm just an option.
You said you love me so much, but you're giving me so much pain.
I remember the day you said "I'm in between" cos you both love me and your friends, but how dare you say such words without even knowing my side?
How dare you left me behind just for the fantasy of your friends?
I want us to be just fine..a happily in love couple.
I want you to reach out to me.
I want to see your efforts.
I want you to help me save our relationship.
I want you to make things happen..but you're doing nothing.

You didn't even send me a text message. You saw me online then that's the time you'll ask for an apology? You can pay the pc rental but you can't pay a cellphone load to text me even a very lame text message? Man, that ain't right. I want to see your sincerity.

Do you even know what I am feeling right now? NO right? I'll bet my life on that cos I know and I can feel that you never care at all..

A night out before I leave Bicol

I just missed Bicol so yea, lemme post the last night out I had with my friends before I leave Bicol.

We boozed at Bistro. (taken last June 10, 2012)

Different settings, same scenario

Don't know why I keep on dreaming bout my bf kissing a girl nowadays. I really don't believe in nightmares but this time is different. And guess what, my bf also told me that he keeps on dreaming that he's hugging a girl and I was in front of him crying cos I saw him hugging that girl.
Can' you tell me why I have to see those fvcking scenarios in my dream? Can't I just dream about the happy moments with him? And a question that's bugging on my mind is that, why do we have the same nightmare? I mean, it's not actually the same but, it's the same story, you know. That's really weird.

Mom's day

Yesterday is a mother's day. Yet, seems like it's nothing peculiar cos first of all, my mom and I aren't that close. However, we still celebrated mom's day watching Dark Shadows at SM Cinema and took our Lunch at Makiyaki.

It's really awkward to ask her to have a picture with me and it's really really awkward to greet her a Happy Mother's Day. I even want to curse myself for doing that. Cos it's not my nature and to think that I'm not really expressive.

1st anniversary with my 1st boyfriend!

We’ve celebrated our anniv at Baguio. I’m so happy yet I was so shy with my bf cos he shouldered all the expenses. Well, we planned that we’ll share on our expenses…but I didn’t got my money. So yea, he’s the one who paid all the expenses...

On our way to Baguio. As you can see, eating his sweet corn.

 

Late Brunch at Mann Hann Restaurant

Obviously..

Til when will I hide this pain?

I don't really loved you so much in the first place. I even hated myself for being your girlfriend. I really don't get it why I said yes to you when in fact I'm in love with the other guy. You even know who that is. I got confused then, cos I know in myself that I love him more, it's him that I really want. Yes, I liked you, but it's him that I love.